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Everybody, meet Derek. Derek, everybody.

HI DEREK!!!!!!!!

hmmm, so less than one full week into my second term here, its already time to start applying for jobs. what a fun and exciting process! (i'm not sure if i'm being sarcastic or not).

also less than a week into school, house hunting has officially begun. houses here are mad expensive, and we have yet to find one that satisfies all of our requirements, but hey, God will provide.

so now onto the serious. job hunting, house hunting...what about church and fellowship? well, i'm beginning that process all over again. i'm starting fresh this term. i'm off to experience new churches and new fellowships. all things new. i initially left ccf because (well, i'm not too sure anymore). i think part of it was just the programs didn't really float my boat and i wasn't really getting a whole lot out of it. was it? or was there something different? was i so engaged in "experiencing new things" and getting away from the whole chinese culture which i grew up in that i decided not to give ccf a chance? i tried wcf instead, and i liked their programs and their discussions, and i enjoyed it there. or so i thought. when i got back home, i started thinking about these things. i realized that i didnt feel like i belonged there at wcf. i felt like i lied to myself and cheated myself into thinking that it was right for me and that i genuinely enjoyed it there. the only reason? probably becuase i already had preconceived ideas of ccf before formally giving it a good chance. now i'm not too sure what to do. i want to check out navigators, i heard they lead really good bible studies and whatnot. i also want to check out ccc, well, scratch that. i've heard good things about ccc, but i refuse to go unless they change their name. what's in a name? a rose by any other would smell as sweet. true, but the second c, crusade. now reallyhere, why would you be almost proud of what happened? not cool, not cool. i refuse to be part of an organization that puts that word in their name and expects people to be fond of their club/organization. how can you possibly do any outreach when your name at first sight turns people off? but i digress. the point is, i want to check out other fellowships. i have ccf as a backup, but i dont want to see it as that. if i end up going to ccf, i want to go becuase i enjoy it there and because i feel called to go there -- not because i have no other choice and thats my "default" fellowhship.
same goes for church. i didn't even bother checking out kwcac last term. i didn't give them a chance. before leaving toronto, i said that i was excited to check out new churches and fellowships to get away from the whole "chinese" business, but before making any fair assesments, i never gave them any chances. i guess this term i will have to make a few objective choices and really look at things from the outside and weight them all equally.


well, its back to the frontlines pour moi now.
bye