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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
there is a _____ at the end of the alley...?
well, here we are, at crossroads. i'm not talking about university. i'm talking about making choices. choices about life. choices that could make lasting repercussions, or choices that will fade quickly. either way; choices.
well, the choice has been made. its tough though. there's what feels right, and then theres what is right. there i was, standing in the alley. i could turn around and get back to the streets where it is safe, but mundane. or i could go on, move forward, but fear what lurks in the alley ahead. well, here i am, on the bustling streets again. i know i made the right decision. i wasn't alone. two others were with me the whole time, guiding my choices.
its funny -- in a non funny way of course, how at w.a.y. camp i decided to surrender all to God. that i would just let him in charge of my life. His will, not mine. well, thats what i got. i think i knew all along what i had to do. it was...dare i say...obvious? but well, i guess i was just in denial the whole time. i didn't want to admit it. i didnt want to suggest change. but im glad others had the courage to step up and suggest it. i'm glad someone else out there says things that don't want to be heard. and for that, i thank you. i'm scared. but i know it was the right decision.
it just doesn't feel right, right now.
patience. patience. only time can tell. hmmm, patience? well, operation cwal. operation cwal.
my way seems better. but God's way is better.
i just have to learn to accept that.
on a side note: i went shopping today. spent uber amounts of money, got clothes for dirt cheap and shoes for $17.50! a jacket for $85!...well, dinner awaits.
...bye...cwal.
well, here we are, at crossroads. i'm not talking about university. i'm talking about making choices. choices about life. choices that could make lasting repercussions, or choices that will fade quickly. either way; choices.
well, the choice has been made. its tough though. there's what feels right, and then theres what is right. there i was, standing in the alley. i could turn around and get back to the streets where it is safe, but mundane. or i could go on, move forward, but fear what lurks in the alley ahead. well, here i am, on the bustling streets again. i know i made the right decision. i wasn't alone. two others were with me the whole time, guiding my choices.
its funny -- in a non funny way of course, how at w.a.y. camp i decided to surrender all to God. that i would just let him in charge of my life. His will, not mine. well, thats what i got. i think i knew all along what i had to do. it was...dare i say...obvious? but well, i guess i was just in denial the whole time. i didn't want to admit it. i didnt want to suggest change. but im glad others had the courage to step up and suggest it. i'm glad someone else out there says things that don't want to be heard. and for that, i thank you. i'm scared. but i know it was the right decision.
it just doesn't feel right, right now.
patience. patience. only time can tell. hmmm, patience? well, operation cwal. operation cwal.
my way seems better. but God's way is better.
i just have to learn to accept that.
on a side note: i went shopping today. spent uber amounts of money, got clothes for dirt cheap and shoes for $17.50! a jacket for $85!...well, dinner awaits.
...bye...cwal.
Thursday, August 25, 2005
operation cwal
waterloo, here i come.
cfc, save me
ccf/(insert name of another campus fellowship), strengthen me
God, do what you do best.
waterloo, here i come.
cfc, save me
ccf/(insert name of another campus fellowship), strengthen me
God, do what you do best.
Sunday, August 21, 2005
the verve
moving out for school will definately be bittersweet. leaving things i want to leave behind, yet at the same time, there's just so much here at home i just want to stay for.
it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
moving out for school will definately be bittersweet. leaving things i want to leave behind, yet at the same time, there's just so much here at home i just want to stay for.
it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
hooray!
...you are awesome. thanks for betraying my trust :D
...once again, losing respect.
...humans...*sigh*
on another note, university is just around the corner. i'm scared. im sure i've expressed this fear before, but i guess as it closes up on me, the fear just grows. just far too many things to think about. oooo eng...treat me well please.
...you are awesome. thanks for betraying my trust :D
...once again, losing respect.
...humans...*sigh*
on another note, university is just around the corner. i'm scared. im sure i've expressed this fear before, but i guess as it closes up on me, the fear just grows. just far too many things to think about. oooo eng...treat me well please.
Saturday, August 13, 2005
lost respect
respect is a lot like trust. trust takes a lifetime to gain, and an instant to lose. likewise, respect for someone takes a long time (relatively) to build up, however, one slip, and its all lost. well, i'm beginning to lose respect. i think its best if i dont hear your beautiful stories. ignorance is bliss.
frosh connexion: now i feel sooo confident about starting school...NOT!!! thanx guys! your stories were encouraging. your experiences were touching. thank you. (or not).
wow. that sucked to the maxors.
respect is a lot like trust. trust takes a lifetime to gain, and an instant to lose. likewise, respect for someone takes a long time (relatively) to build up, however, one slip, and its all lost. well, i'm beginning to lose respect. i think its best if i dont hear your beautiful stories. ignorance is bliss.
frosh connexion: now i feel sooo confident about starting school...NOT!!! thanx guys! your stories were encouraging. your experiences were touching. thank you. (or not).
wow. that sucked to the maxors.
stop making fun of me.
its definately a sign. i have received NUMEROUS suggestions to cut my hair. even the daycamp kids make fun of me. they say things like "why WON'T you cut your hair?" and
"you look like a girl" and "you're ugly" and "your hair is so long". parents as well, have told me to cut my hair ie. ernest's dad and sarah kee's mom. yea...its embarrasing. but i like my hair!
ANYWAYS enough about my hair. i beat jeremy at 21 today. that was nice. and then there were other "unimportant" details of my day. nothing big. nothing i'll remember past tonight :P
but yea, enough about my day. thought time. fellowship tonight was about the da vinci code and misconceptions about it. one thing that really stuck with me was how he (tony costa...the man with two first names) mentioned how the gospels of the Bible were chosen. i guess i was one of those "ignorant" Christians who didn't know a whole lot about his own faith, but it wasn't even until last summer that i even found out there were other so-called gospels out there. and ever since, i've wondered how these gospels were chosen over the other ones. it doesnt sound like a big deal, but put it this way. the credibility of the new testament and subsequently the Christian faith itself lies in HOW these books were chosen. there were numerous other books out there, and only a select few are considered divine and truthful. and thus, if they were chosen hap hazzardly, well then, there goes credibility.
so what tony said was that the books were chosen with the following criteria: they had to be either written by apostles of disciples of apostles, and they had to be written within one hundred years of Jesus' time on earth, where the eyewitnesses were still around. that all makes sense and just adds soo much more credibility to these books over the other so called gospels. basically, for the first criteria, that ensures that all of the accounts were first/second hand accounts, and ensures accuracy. and as for the second, that jsut means that if any of it were not accurate, then someone (if not MANY) would surely have refuted those texts.
i think thats it... yea, it was better when he said it.
in other news. frosh connexion tomorrow! im so excited!
"spread the truth. prevent the spread of AIDS"
its definately a sign. i have received NUMEROUS suggestions to cut my hair. even the daycamp kids make fun of me. they say things like "why WON'T you cut your hair?" and
"you look like a girl" and "you're ugly" and "your hair is so long". parents as well, have told me to cut my hair ie. ernest's dad and sarah kee's mom. yea...its embarrasing. but i like my hair!
ANYWAYS enough about my hair. i beat jeremy at 21 today. that was nice. and then there were other "unimportant" details of my day. nothing big. nothing i'll remember past tonight :P
but yea, enough about my day. thought time. fellowship tonight was about the da vinci code and misconceptions about it. one thing that really stuck with me was how he (tony costa...the man with two first names) mentioned how the gospels of the Bible were chosen. i guess i was one of those "ignorant" Christians who didn't know a whole lot about his own faith, but it wasn't even until last summer that i even found out there were other so-called gospels out there. and ever since, i've wondered how these gospels were chosen over the other ones. it doesnt sound like a big deal, but put it this way. the credibility of the new testament and subsequently the Christian faith itself lies in HOW these books were chosen. there were numerous other books out there, and only a select few are considered divine and truthful. and thus, if they were chosen hap hazzardly, well then, there goes credibility.
so what tony said was that the books were chosen with the following criteria: they had to be either written by apostles of disciples of apostles, and they had to be written within one hundred years of Jesus' time on earth, where the eyewitnesses were still around. that all makes sense and just adds soo much more credibility to these books over the other so called gospels. basically, for the first criteria, that ensures that all of the accounts were first/second hand accounts, and ensures accuracy. and as for the second, that jsut means that if any of it were not accurate, then someone (if not MANY) would surely have refuted those texts.
i think thats it... yea, it was better when he said it.
in other news. frosh connexion tomorrow! im so excited!
"spread the truth. prevent the spread of AIDS"
Thursday, August 11, 2005
yum yum!
yea, if you think this is real...you're dumb...im not THAAAAT bad.
o man, that was perfect. silas, you are awesome...FO SHIZZEY!
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
finally
after months and months of listening to my mother's "gentle nagging" i have finally bought a laptop.
http://www.bestbuy.ca/catalog/proddetail.asp?logon=&langid=EN&MSCSProfile=3C79F0C7EA3162B2F85612BBB7512FD2A8F9FD71D0E5B9B599CA78142C8A5E89E8C641F6C59D66F6F7558BAC781235462D1041C4A5130BCC4A82B0F40919DF24B47C1D819AD7CBD26E0FB9D6338CF171F373A1BD8E856D38F9419848BE43AAF9496BB2E54CCF093CDED617279308DD11346E5A767B1E9EFD&sku_id=0926INGFS10063268&catid=
theres a link to it. comments? its not too late to return it! so yea, leave comments if you have any.
if you have any biases for or against bestbuy, please put them aside and give me your honest opinion on the laptop.
as for mystery person b (who may or may not be the same as "a") : the next person on your list-de-tell (yea, that statement makes not sense whatsoever) should be the rest of the world...(you might as well)
- the manliest man who ever manned this manly man man world of manliness with all of his manly glory...man.
...welcome to the dark side of OZ
after months and months of listening to my mother's "gentle nagging" i have finally bought a laptop.
http://www.bestbuy.ca/catalog/proddetail.asp?logon=&langid=EN&MSCSProfile=3C79F0C7EA3162B2F85612BBB7512FD2A8F9FD71D0E5B9B599CA78142C8A5E89E8C641F6C59D66F6F7558BAC781235462D1041C4A5130BCC4A82B0F40919DF24B47C1D819AD7CBD26E0FB9D6338CF171F373A1BD8E856D38F9419848BE43AAF9496BB2E54CCF093CDED617279308DD11346E5A767B1E9EFD&sku_id=0926INGFS10063268&catid=
theres a link to it. comments? its not too late to return it! so yea, leave comments if you have any.
if you have any biases for or against bestbuy, please put them aside and give me your honest opinion on the laptop.
as for mystery person b (who may or may not be the same as "a") : the next person on your list-de-tell (yea, that statement makes not sense whatsoever) should be the rest of the world...(you might as well)
- the manliest man who ever manned this manly man man world of manliness with all of his manly glory...man.
...welcome to the dark side of OZ
Monday, August 08, 2005
no but SERIOUSLY, i'm fine.
im happy, and i'm loving life.
im happy, and i'm loving life.
well, the emo-ness is over. i'm back to being a normal kid again. (unless normal means emo).
but o well, like i said to paul, it was fun while it lasted, but i'm glad its over now.
but o well, i still want to quote some emo lyrics.
maybe i'll win, but for now i've decided to die. - motion city soundtrack
why does hello feel like goodbye? - matchbook romance
swallow, choke, and die. - dashboard confessional-orama
i'm not smiling, beneath this fake veneer. - motion city soundtrack
leave this sinking ship - NOFX
goodbye cruel world, goodbye - Pink Floyd
you shout, but no one seems to hear - Pink Floyd
more to come. :D
(seriously, you dont need to worry about me).
remember world, i dont date losers.
mystery person a: *sneak sneak*
btw, i know these lyrics are super emo...and at times, suicidal...but seriously, dont worry about me :D im alrite:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
but o well, like i said to paul, it was fun while it lasted, but i'm glad its over now.
but o well, i still want to quote some emo lyrics.
maybe i'll win, but for now i've decided to die. - motion city soundtrack
why does hello feel like goodbye? - matchbook romance
swallow, choke, and die. - dashboard confessional-orama
i'm not smiling, beneath this fake veneer. - motion city soundtrack
leave this sinking ship - NOFX
goodbye cruel world, goodbye - Pink Floyd
you shout, but no one seems to hear - Pink Floyd
more to come. :D
(seriously, you dont need to worry about me).
remember world, i dont date losers.
mystery person a: *sneak sneak*
btw, i know these lyrics are super emo...and at times, suicidal...but seriously, dont worry about me :D im alrite:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Sunday, August 07, 2005
genuinely good
well, today i had a double header, which i played on 4 hours of sleep. big mistake. so yea, my body was up for it, and i was able to run and exert myself fully without throwing up (...unlike the last time i engaged in physical activity while on a deficit of sleep). so that was good. but yea...my mind was wandering through both games. i was so lost the whole time. i messed up numerous times, both while fielding and while batting. i even slipped on the gravel on my way from the DUGOUT to the PLATE...that was so embarrasing. and the ump (i think it was anthony at the time) said something like "i know you're eager to play and all, but calm yourself"...yea that made me feel super stupid. o and another stupid moment...haha, on TWO seperate occasions, i found myself stuck at second base...accompanied by someone else (how embarrasing) so yea. the first time, i was there with someone else, i ran, but to no avail. the second time, we saw each other, and i darted to third and he jetted off to first where he came from and we were both safe. that was hilarious. there were numourous more slip ups and mishaps...but lets not get into those. on the bright side tho, during our practice times, i managed to catch the ball a few times between the legs WITHOUT any close calls...unlike the last time...yea that was definately too close for comfort. long story short, josh hit a hard and fast grounder...i put the glove behind me and between my legs. at the last second, the ball hit something and bounced up...and well...you can guess what happened...upper inner thigh...
but softball aside, today was genuinely good. i haven't had a day like this in quite a while, and my recent posts show it. so yea, things went well today. better than i could have imagined. and for that, i am grateful.
i need more of these days.
its nice to patch things up, to fix the broken, and to mend open wounds.
i can rest easy tonight.
goodnight everyone. i'm off.
-simon
well, today i had a double header, which i played on 4 hours of sleep. big mistake. so yea, my body was up for it, and i was able to run and exert myself fully without throwing up (...unlike the last time i engaged in physical activity while on a deficit of sleep). so that was good. but yea...my mind was wandering through both games. i was so lost the whole time. i messed up numerous times, both while fielding and while batting. i even slipped on the gravel on my way from the DUGOUT to the PLATE...that was so embarrasing. and the ump (i think it was anthony at the time) said something like "i know you're eager to play and all, but calm yourself"...yea that made me feel super stupid. o and another stupid moment...haha, on TWO seperate occasions, i found myself stuck at second base...accompanied by someone else (how embarrasing) so yea. the first time, i was there with someone else, i ran, but to no avail. the second time, we saw each other, and i darted to third and he jetted off to first where he came from and we were both safe. that was hilarious. there were numourous more slip ups and mishaps...but lets not get into those. on the bright side tho, during our practice times, i managed to catch the ball a few times between the legs WITHOUT any close calls...unlike the last time...yea that was definately too close for comfort. long story short, josh hit a hard and fast grounder...i put the glove behind me and between my legs. at the last second, the ball hit something and bounced up...and well...you can guess what happened...upper inner thigh...
but softball aside, today was genuinely good. i haven't had a day like this in quite a while, and my recent posts show it. so yea, things went well today. better than i could have imagined. and for that, i am grateful.
i need more of these days.
its nice to patch things up, to fix the broken, and to mend open wounds.
i can rest easy tonight.
goodnight everyone. i'm off.
-simon
Monday, August 01, 2005
...when things go awry...
well, i heard a song by simple plan, i dont even know what its called (its called untitled, but theres an alternate name...but i dont know that name) but it sums up my current situation. and i would just like to mention that i hate simple plan. they're just a bunch of wannabes. for the record, ive only heard this song like all of ONCE so yea...dont give me crap for listening to them, becuase i dont...im still hardcore! (hardcore till the day i die - pennywise)...or not...anyways...
back to the serious part.
the song.
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edgeI'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
im glad im going off for a week with the family...i need time to think, time alone...just...well...time to rethink me.
well, i heard a song by simple plan, i dont even know what its called (its called untitled, but theres an alternate name...but i dont know that name) but it sums up my current situation. and i would just like to mention that i hate simple plan. they're just a bunch of wannabes. for the record, ive only heard this song like all of ONCE so yea...dont give me crap for listening to them, becuase i dont...im still hardcore! (hardcore till the day i die - pennywise)...or not...anyways...
back to the serious part.
the song.
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edgeI'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
im glad im going off for a week with the family...i need time to think, time alone...just...well...time to rethink me.
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